Baby & Adilz

2005-04-15T01:11:00.000-07:00

To all my darLINKZ...

i have change my bloggy url... will not b using www.babyblue-licious.blogspot.com.. Now its http:miz-honey-bee.blogspot.com... Do check it out k!! till here byez..

2005-04-05T20:43:00.000-07:00

My OnLy LoVe...

2005-04-03T22:14:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry sayang ..
for the stupid attitude yesterday..
i'm sorry sayang ..
for being sarcastic lately..
i'm sorry sayang ..
for throwing my temper on you..
i'm sorry sayang ..
if my behavior all these while hurt you..
i'm sorry sayang ..
if i made u soo pissed off lately..

Going thru days n months...
Now its been 6 mnths dat we are together..
I'm very happy having you as my hubby..
How u tolerate my attitudes..
How u cool me down when i'm in no mood..
How u held me when im feeling down..
How u console me when i had very bad dreams..

I can still remember our first meeting and ur first thought of me was i'm a stuck up gurl..
Yup..I did show my attitude coz i didn't really know you..
We exchange CDs and i went off just like that..
Then that nite u did'nt call me at all..
i thought u didn't want to contact me no more so i off my hp...
The next morning i was like so happy to receive your msg...

Our second meeting was when pencil led got stuck in my finger..
And you helped me with it..
Its so freaking painful..
Then we got home n i can't stop smelling my hand..
It smells so good..should b your perfume..

then later on we get closer to each other..
every single nite we talked to each other..
he's so sweet..

Then came my N-Level...
How stress i felt..
but he was there to consult me..
He helped me with my maths question..
He made a madly stress gurl into a confident gurl...
That was the part that i kinda like him...

Our next meeting when i had a terrible day...
Something bad happen...
And again he was there for me..
He lend me his shoulder when i burst into tears..
How he advice my brother to be strong abt this bad thing..
And again my feelings for him grow..

The day we became one was on 8th October 2004...
i, him n my brother..
we went to east coast park to relax out mind..
And my brother wantd to play this true or dare game.. n we did..
And this game made us a Couple..
Then he tell me all about his past..

But even wen we are already a couple, i didn't really trust our relationship..
I sill had fear in going thru another relationship after wad had happen to me 8 mnths ago..
I didn't know what to do..
I hate short trm relationship..
It makes me feel like a cheap gurl..
one after another...
Juz not my cup of tea..

So i break up with him..
Ya..i'm unsure of this relationship..
I dun want to go thru another heart breaking..
But at the same time i felt guilty..
I hurt an innocent guy..
Receive a BAD scolding, shouts n vulgarity from my mum...
Ya.. my mum really like my hubby...

And luckily we were back together..
Till now n forever i hoped..

For these six mnths i did alot of stupid things..
Several time i asked for a break up without even thinking..
By doing that i barely know that i've hurt him alooot..
But still he wants me..
How lucky i am to have a guy like him..

Now then i realise that i really love him..
I might not show him dat i love him..
but deep inside me im in love with him..
He's all thats i want..
he is all that i wished for..
He is all that my heart aches for..
He is all that i love..
N really hoped that he'll be mine till the end..

SAYANG SORIE AGAIN N AGAIN FOR SHOWING YOU MY IRRITATING ATTITUDE..
PLEASE REMEMBER DAT I HAD ALWAYS N WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU..
I MIGHT NOT SHOW BUT I DO..
AT TIMES I DON"T KNOW HOW TO SHOW YOU HOW MUCH I REALLY DO..
I'LL TRY TO CHANGE MY ATTITUDE FOR YOU SAYANG..
REALLY WANNA LET YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..
YOU ARE MY HUBBY NOW N FOEVER!!!

2005-03-29T09:44:00.000-08:00

My feelings r changing easily...
Suddenly i feel like crying..
Suddenly i feel like dying before aniting BAD happen..
Suddenly i feel so fraustrated..
Suddenly i feel so damn fucked up..
Suddenly i feel so weak..
Suddenly i feel all these..
Suddenly i feel like my heart is going to explode!!

Wad the hell is happening?!
The thing that i hope i pray i beg it would not happen has happen...
Wads next??
There she goes....
I'll watch n cry...
I miss my sisi..
God, now wad did i do?
Where is it dat has gone wrong??

God, are you trying to gimme a hint of wads going to happen next??
or
are you trying to tell me to expect the unexpected??
All are in your hands..

Aniwaes, i finally got the course i always wanted, office skills in ite simei..
Felt so happy juz now..
Thank You GOD!!

a very sad n touching story..

2005-03-25T20:26:00.000-08:00

This story is from friendster...

Long time ago..there was a princess who lived in
the palace..she was a very beautiful and wise
princess..many prince has come to ask for her
hand..but,all of the princes was rejected...
Finally,she decided to get married..many
competition was held to choose her
husband..finally,only 5 prince was left..she
thought
of a plan..she hide her hand and stick out a
finger..each of the prince get to guess which
finger
it was.. The first princes show her his
thumb..the
second prince show her his index finger..the
third
prince show her his middle finger..and was slap
by
the princess..the fourth prince show her his
marriage finger..finally..the last prince show
her
his
last finger.. The princess looked at the 5th
prince
and took out her hidden hand..the princess also
pointed out her last finger..she hooked it with
him
and they got married..they was very very happy
together One day..the prince had to go to
war..the
princess was sad and worried..so,the prince hook
fingers with her saying that he will come back
alive
for her.. Days past by,and soon,1 year has
past..the prince have not returned..rumours was
spreading everywhere that the prince had
died..so,
many other prince came to ask for her hand to
remarry..reluctant,she continue waiting for the
prince..years past by and she knew she had to
marry again.. She decided to do the same
thing..she stick out her last finger infront of
the
princes..but none of them know what she
meant..they thought she wanted a ring on her last
finger..so,she marry none of them.. One day,a
beggar wearing a hat came and wanted to ask for
the princess hand..at first,the soldiers stopped
him..but,the princess thought that everybody had
a
chance..so,she let him in..the princess did the
same thing,and to her surprise,the beggar stick
his last finger and hook it on hers.. Later,the
beggar
took out his hat..looking at him,the princess
found
out that he was her lost husband..she hugged
him.. and they were together again happily..days
past... One night,the prince woke up and walk out
of his bed..disturbed by the prince..the princess
woke up too..she followed him..but after he
walked
out of the gate..he disappeared..the princess was
sad.. Later,she found out that the prince had
died
when he was on his way back from the
war..but,in
order to honour his promise..he came back as a
ghost..7month is the ghost
festival..so,7X7=49..he
could only be with her for 49 days and later,he
would vanish forever.. Finally,the princess found
the prince body..she lied beside him,hook her
finger with his and drank poison..so,that is how
it
ends.. Now, u know how the last finger was said
to be made as promises..

DeDiCaTiOn FoR My SaYaNg...

2005-03-24T22:06:00.000-08:00

To my sayang, Fadhil...

As far as i know, my journey in knowing guys to meet my right one ends here. My right one that i wish for is in you.You know i love you with all thats i got. My love for you is so much that i feel like time has no limits, distance has no boundaries and money has no amounts. My love is present to you by my heart thats beating. My love for you will end when my heart stops. But still each day each minute i love you like there's no tomorrow for me...
I LOVE YOU SAYANG!!
Muaxx!!
With love and care,
RuQaYyaH...

2005-03-22T13:14:00.000-08:00

I MISS MY SAYANG!!!! HEHE!!! I MISS MY DARLING SIS!!! I MISS MY CUTE CUTE FWENS IIN CHAI CHEE SEC!! I MISS WERKING WITH IKIN!!! MOST OF ALL I MISS MY SAYANG!!! haiz...

2005-03-20T20:45:00.000-08:00

hello...juz woke up..now listening to Fantasia Musim Cinta.. its a very old song but kinda get addicted to that song from Iwan..Its so nice...hmm..i have nth much to say..my day was alright..

Werking with shikin is really great!! very fun but yesterday was a veru boring day for me n shikin.. cause the manager is soooo... errr!! he's so boring.. ade je keje nak suro org buat..But one thing i pity abt him he stays in woodlands but werk in haig rd.. kesian seh..sad rite..finish wek ard 11++ at night..Today will b my last day of the week werking with my darlung shikin..cause she'll b werking in the morning n i'll b werking in the afternoon..wonder how it will b like w/o her?? confirm it'll b damn boring man!! haiz..have to live independently once a while..so till here la..

Liriks lagu Fantasia MusiM Cinta..

Ku genggam awan kelabu
Ku gapai langit yang biru
Arah kita kian bersatu
Tinggalkan lagu rindumu

Langkah kita makin hampir
Kutahu kau menungguku
Dihujung titik menantilah aku
Alam mimpi...

( korus )
Bulan bintang sang suria
Bagai saksi janji kita
Meniti hari-hari
Yang indah ini...

Gunung akan kudaki
Lautan kan aku renangi
Demi memburu mimpi
Yang pasti

Pintu kini telah terbuka
Kita pun langkah bersama
Fantasi mimpi berakhir
Cinta pun berpadu

Hari-hari yang berlalu
Menjelma bukanlah mimpi lagi
Umpama sungai dan tebing
Seiring, sehati dan sejiwa

2005-03-18T22:48:00.000-08:00

My DarLiNg & Me!! LoVe Him!!

2005-03-18T22:47:00.000-08:00

Me n My CaT..PutRi..cute rite she??

2005-03-18T22:45:00.000-08:00

Me...

My JoBZ!!

2005-03-17T22:41:00.000-08:00

Okay..heyloo evry1.. sorrie fer not updating my bloggy often.. busy werking ar.. I'm no more werking in Long John.. Now im werking at Watson Haig Rd with my darling shikin.. Okla..the job is okay.. sometimes relaxing..tat job can b tooo relaxing that will make me very the sleepy.. The manager is also fun.. The only ting that i dun like is... I HATE STANDING FOR LONG HOURS!! that's the only problem i have.. Overall all are okay..

To My DeaR Ika..
hehe..i quit long john for sooo many reason.. Actualy not that many la..hehhe
Firstly the pay tk berbaloi.. Secondly, there's dis new gal werking there always carik pasal dgn aku.. She is actually mentally unstable.. At on moment she will laugh then another minute she will scold u den another minute again she will tok 2 u nicely.. and it goes on n on.. First i was like mampos ar malas nak layan.. Den she became more IRRITATING.. She scold one the crew dat has been werking for more than two years for moping the floor..She act like she's the manager..She perintah all the worker there to do wad she say..Like fuck sia..On her last day b4 my manager sacked her, she take dis one metal ting and throw at my heart..Coz i never listen to her..So wad i did was i push her n kick her n went to the office..Its very painful man..And this crazy gal got sacked n i got to know dat she's searching for me..to seek for revenge..So i quit..N somemore shikin ask me to appply for Watson..So gal thats my story okay.. till here la..want to go to werk!!

Aniwaes i miss someone la...

My FeaRs!!

2005-03-16T22:13:00.000-08:00

Got my ans to my ite admission.. i ve been selected for electronics n not office.. i'll b schooling in Mac Pherson not Simei.. Every time when schoole starts i have this fear dat i cannot overcome.. So many question is in my head without any ans.. Why am i posted to that school?? How is my life going to b like in that school?? Can i cope with someting dat i dun even like?? How's the frends there?? Am i going to changed from bad to worse?? Can i make it for electronics?? I'm realli scared to meet new people.. its funny rite but its the fact n its my fear.. I fear meeting new friends.. Its not that i dun want but sumhow i want my old fren to b with me juz like my secondary life.. The most scariest ting is that i dun wan to LOSE my syg!!! n My old friends!!i have no confidence studying in MAc Pherson.. I'm like a child who lost her mother if im in that school.. I'm lost!! I want Chai Chee Secondary School!! evrynite before i go to sleep.. theres awaes tears in my eyes!! im scared to go to that school.. i beg to god not to put me in dat school.. I want my old friends back!! Shikin Nadia Yaya Nisa Fidah Michelle!! i want them to b by me!! I want my hubby to b beside me in my life!! Since the day i know dat i'll b in that school.. i dun feel happy!!I may smile to u but deep inside iM SCARED!!! How?? I try to b strong n put my fears away.. but i cannot.. N ite n secondary life isn't the same.. I dunno y but im scared!! Yes this is merepek but its the fact!! After all its been years that im awaes with my buddies n now its juz me alone with many new pple..N dat school.. i heard aloot of stories about a girl who lost their virginity becoz of those guys.. Baru masuk da hilang!! How???!!! Hiaz..till here la..

The Twist in my LOVE life

2005-03-05T21:56:00.000-08:00

MY OLD CHAPTER OF MY LOVE LIFE...
In my life..i used to love one guy..and dat guy is amirrul.. I gave all my heart to him.. He's my first love although i had other guys before him.. But i dun love them lke how i love him.. To this particular guy..I shut my eyes to see the world.. I shut my ears to my friends. Wad i wanted is onli him.. I dun care a heck about the world.. All i want is being with him.. At that time he's juz so sweet.. Then we broke up after 4 mnths cause i had some probs.. And few weeks after our break up i became so weak without him.. life was completely different.. ANd i got to know he has got my replacement.. How my heart breaks.. After about two mnths not being together.. He den realise that he onli wants me.. His gal was so rough that he himslef cannot stand.. he broke up with his gal n went back to me.. Datz on 9 october 2003.. after being togeder back.. He promised me TOO many things dat really shaken me.. We were the sweetest couple ever.. I gave all my heat to him without knowing wads gonna happen.. I really love him with all my heart.. But as soon as year 2004 comes by EVERYTHING changed.. As soon as the NEW sec 1 student entered my school.. EVRYTHING changed.. Firstly he got hooked up with this sec 1 gurl named ATIQAH.. N i didn't realise all these.. My fwens tried to tell me.. But i shut my ears to them.. I trust him so much and know that he will not betray me.. But i was wrong.. Dalam diam2 he sound that atiqah a few times when we r actually together.. But that gurl rejected him.. One day i realised that he's changing.. He wont reply to my msg.. He wont call me.. I have to b the one to call him.. Den on his hp i saw ALOT of his msgs to that atiqah.. How my heart breaks.. Onli god knows.. When i confronted him.. He asked fer a time out.. How i was shocked!! after about few weeks, my fwens saw his msgs to a new gal named FARAH.. When i asked he said its his cousin.. And again without knowing he's with FARAH n at the same time he's with me.. How it hurts!!! How it ACHES!!! Den he breaks up wih that farah n went to me n STUPID of me to accept him back.. Ya hell i was stupid but what can i do.. I'm deeply in love with him!! Den later he got hooked up with this model name Nurul.. Again without me knowing he sounded that gurl but she reject him.. And i didn't know abt this.. Den on our 1 year anniversary on 9 June 2004.. guessed wad he told me " sayang dis is our last day k.." At that point of time i feel so pain.. but kept all those feelings inside me.. Den he told me he like dis one gal.. But he was scared dat they wont b able to b together.. He told me his feelings towards that gurl without even thinking wad would i feel.. I kept all these hurt inside n cried evry single nite.. Thinking that i had done so much for him.. I'd even shut my eyes to the world.. But all these that happen really made me sick n pale.. How my heart breaks onli god knows.. n the day i cannot take it i woke up n find myself in de hospital.. Then he left me all alone.. The whole time im all alone in my dark room.. i feel like im in the dark!! i feel like i could'nt take all these.. wads my mistake.. Is loving him a crime.. Then my mum came n tok to me.. She put sense into me.. Still i could feel the pain.. For the nearly 8 mnths, i was in misery!! i dun feel like going to school.. I cant stand seeing him smile!! its like for him nothing has happen.. after abt two weeks we broke up i saw him n his gal atiqah happily holding hands!! I realy cant stand that moment of my life. That moment really sux!!

A NEW FWEN CAME N OUR FRIENDSHIP BEGINS...
Den came Fadhil.. I know him thru' his brother Hidhir.. We tok to each other almost evry nite.. He told about his past.. N i shared with him abt my past.. And we r actually in the same shoes.. Baru kene bastard.. So we get to know more abt ourself..

SOON THE FRIENDSHIP TURN INTO LOVE..
As time goes by we r togeder.. We r very happy.. VERY happy.. but suddenly.. something bad happen.. This bad thing really shaken our love for each other.. His ex came back to his life n wants him back.. I bearly knows dat he confused but he dosen wan to show cause he know that I'll b hurt..N many pple told me to break up n finally i asked for a break up but he didn't let me go.. my reason for a break up was bco of my family n also becoz too many pple kinda wash my brain.. n i agreed.. But my cousin, Farhanah stood up n didn't let me break up with him.. but by the time she told me i areadi asked for it.. Of coz he's shocked n he tok 2 me.. At that time he kinda accused me of playing with his heart.. But he didnt know wad i was going thru.. how dey wash my brain.. he didnt know about all these.. I guessed i follow what they say becos my love for him was'nt that strong.. Fotunately we didnt break up.. i took back my words.. N i prayed to god.. aksed him to show me my way n soon my love for him grew.. As days pass by my love for grew stronger n stronger.. Im happy that i found my love for him back.. Hope it won't go away!! NOW I REALLY LOVE HIM!! my love for is even stronger then how i love amirrul.. But im scared that we wont b together.. The scary feeling of losing him awaes appear.. I can take any pain except of one pain..THE PAIN Of LOSING SOMEONE I REALLY LOVE.. Tuhan.. tolonglah aku.. jangan pisah kan kami!! I have shut my eyes for the second time to the world.. I hope its worth while.. Sayang i had never played with ur feelings.. N will never will.. I juz need time to build my love for you.. Now my love for you is completely built.. hope u understand.. I have no one else but you.. YOU are the onli one i want.. Hope our love will b forever.. I want to b a part of your life.. N you are a PART of my life!! iM glad dat my parents really like you sayang!!

SAYANG I M SORRY IF I"D EVER HURT YOU BUT IM HONEST>> HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU ONLI GOD KNOWS!!

My DaY

2005-03-02T23:05:00.000-08:00

toady did nth much..feel like changing my skin so i change..realli love this skin..its so simple..dis time i didn't do it..its copyright..i juz edit abit.its so simple yet so nice..today im on mc..hehe..penat ar smalam balik umah kul 4 am..tired..but yesterday was really very fun!! duduk dgn my syg from 11 till 4 am..laugh non stop the whole nite..he's so lovely n funnny..missing him areadi..@ 1.30 we sit at chai chee hill get to c stars n moon..so lovely..he tell me his past n stuff..we tok2 until we dun realise dat its 4 am..im so happy..get 2 b with him..juz so happy..reach home @ 4 straight to bed..cnnt tahan got headache..woke up @ 10 help cleaning the house n here i am..at de comp..till here la..dunno wad 2 write ar..heheh..bubyz!!

My DaY!!

2005-02-24T05:31:00.000-08:00

My day today was quiet alrite most of the tme on the comp trying to make a new skin..it takes me 4 hrs man..Luckily it turns out ok..But one ting kak sue one is still de best!! She's de best in doing skin..This is de skin i did..Not nice but ok la...fer first timer..About my whole day..quiet bored i spent my time on comp fer about 6 hrs den sleep fer abt 7 hrs..datz wad i did the whole day..BuT i miss my syg..wonder wads he's doing?? he's sick..haiz...kecian seh tgk dia..smalam p umah dia frm 1 till 3.30 am..gk cite hantu dgn abg hidhir..best..kinda scary but fun..tomolo keje..haiz..tk cukup seh satu hari off..so tired man!!!klah end here..

OkaY i'M BaCk..

2005-02-19T21:17:00.000-08:00

OkaY..As U cAn c..i ChAnGe My bLoGsKiN..aLL ThE CreDiTs GoeS tO SuE..ShE MaDe DiS BeaUtiFuL sKiN FeR Me...i ReaLLi LoVe It..WaNna KnOw Y?? CoZ iTs BLUE in CoLor!!! AcTuaLLy NtH MuCh To ShArE WiT..WerK WaS CooL + MiSerAbLe..I HaTe ThE WoMen MaNaGeR..ShEs LiKe ArGGhhh!!! JuZ HaTe HeR...NoW iM ReaLLi NoT LooKiNg FoRwArD To Go Werk..WeLL WhO In DiS WoRlD Is..ExCept FeR My MuM..KiNdA FeeL FuCkEd Up SoMeTiMeS..i DiD MaKe FwEnZ..BuT ThOse FrenLy FwEnS R NoT In De SaMe ShiFt As Me..I'M LiKe..DuNno La..UnCoMfOrtAbLe..N EvRy FriDaY SuReLy KeNe KaCaU DgN BdAk ITE kLu DrG Nk OrDeR MkN..I WaNt To TaKe Mc!!!!! BuT CaNnOt..HaiZ...ReaLLie FuCkEd Up maN!! HoPe 2DaY My MaNaGeR Is sKy..Hes oNe CooL MsNaGeR ThErE!! i'll EnD HeRe..WaNNa Go WerK La...BuByEZ!!

FiRsT Day Of WerK...

2005-02-15T09:36:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was my first day at werk...let me giv u a flash back abt my werk..hehe.. i werk at Long John Silver at tamp...De exact place find it urself..hehe..the job was simple yet cmplicated..understand? ya..n i love tat job..its much3 much3 much3 more better den mac donald..Mac donald sux man wif the arrogant crew n stupid manager..all were so fucked up but Long John is a totally different atmosphere..Firstly..over there, there's NO minah n mats.. seme kat sane kakak2 n abg2 except fer me n yati n chen li..my so called new fwens..n my manager address us as ADEQ n we must address him as ABG..hehe..he's so fun..very easy going.. Yati n Azmi n Chen Li helped me alot..im doing the counter position n dey helped me alott...One ting i hate abt Long John is wen sumbody ring the bell we counter crew have to shout Ahoy..thank you n come again..kekek seh...yesterday the whole time i was panic wen there's customer..takot serve drg lambat..But fortunately evryting goes well..finish my werk @ 10++ den meet my syg..after so long den get to meet him..mish him lotz..but tu pun dpt jumpe kejap je..so sowie syg..today we meet again k..reached home @ 12 midnight..mandi seme tnggu my syg kol sampai trtido..hehe..penat ar..penat berdiri..den today i werk at 6..realli hope nth will go wrong today..klah end here..

ps: to my syg i love u sooo much n to iKin..gd luckz..wish u all the best..i love u!!

2005-02-14T02:00:00.000-08:00

now dis ia at the seaside...gawd!! de scenery

2005-02-14T01:59:00.000-08:00

dis is how it looks from top view..its abit blurr i can say...but is so NICE!!!

2005-02-14T01:57:00.000-08:00

how nice de scenery is..nyce ryte??

2005-02-14T01:55:00.000-08:00

dis is pulau panyee...all in a mess bcoz of de flood..