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Saturday, March 05, 2005

MY OLD CHAPTER OF MY LOVE LIFE...
In my life..i used to love one guy..and dat guy is amirrul.. I gave all my heart to him.. He's my first love although i had other guys before him.. But i dun love them lke how i love him.. To this particular guy..I shut my eyes to see the world.. I shut my ears to my friends. Wad i wanted is onli him.. I dun care a heck about the world.. All i want is being with him.. At that time he's juz so sweet.. Then we broke up after 4 mnths cause i had some probs.. And few weeks after our break up i became so weak without him.. life was completely different.. ANd i got to know he has got my replacement.. How my heart breaks.. After about two mnths not being together.. He den realise that he onli wants me.. His gal was so rough that he himslef cannot stand.. he broke up with his gal n went back to me.. Datz on 9 october 2003.. after being togeder back.. He promised me TOO many things dat really shaken me.. We were the sweetest couple ever.. I gave all my heat to him without knowing wads gonna happen.. I really love him with all my heart.. But as soon as year 2004 comes by EVERYTHING changed.. As soon as the NEW sec 1 student entered my school.. EVRYTHING changed.. Firstly he got hooked up with this sec 1 gurl named ATIQAH.. N i didn't realise all these.. My fwens tried to tell me.. But i shut my ears to them.. I trust him so much and know that he will not betray me.. But i was wrong.. Dalam diam2 he sound that atiqah a few times when we r actually together.. But that gurl rejected him.. One day i realised that he's changing.. He wont reply to my msg.. He wont call me.. I have to b the one to call him.. Den on his hp i saw ALOT of his msgs to that atiqah.. How my heart breaks.. Onli god knows.. When i confronted him.. He asked fer a time out.. How i was shocked!! after about few weeks, my fwens saw his msgs to a new gal named FARAH.. When i asked he said its his cousin.. And again without knowing he's with FARAH n at the same time he's with me.. How it hurts!!! How it ACHES!!! Den he breaks up wih that farah n went to me n STUPID of me to accept him back.. Ya hell i was stupid but what can i do.. I'm deeply in love with him!! Den later he got hooked up with this model name Nurul.. Again without me knowing he sounded that gurl but she reject him.. And i didn't know abt this.. Den on our 1 year anniversary on 9 June 2004.. guessed wad he told me " sayang dis is our last day k.." At that point of time i feel so pain.. but kept all those feelings inside me.. Den he told me he like dis one gal.. But he was scared dat they wont b able to b together.. He told me his feelings towards that gurl without even thinking wad would i feel.. I kept all these hurt inside n cried evry single nite.. Thinking that i had done so much for him.. I'd even shut my eyes to the world.. But all these that happen really made me sick n pale.. How my heart breaks onli god knows.. n the day i cannot take it i woke up n find myself in de hospital.. Then he left me all alone.. The whole time im all alone in my dark room.. i feel like im in the dark!! i feel like i could'nt take all these.. wads my mistake.. Is loving him a crime.. Then my mum came n tok to me.. She put sense into me.. Still i could feel the pain.. For the nearly 8 mnths, i was in misery!! i dun feel like going to school.. I cant stand seeing him smile!! its like for him nothing has happen.. after abt two weeks we broke up i saw him n his gal atiqah happily holding hands!! I realy cant stand that moment of my life. That moment really sux!!

A NEW FWEN CAME N OUR FRIENDSHIP BEGINS...
Den came Fadhil.. I know him thru' his brother Hidhir.. We tok to each other almost evry nite.. He told about his past.. N i shared with him abt my past.. And we r actually in the same shoes.. Baru kene bastard.. So we get to know more abt ourself..

SOON THE FRIENDSHIP TURN INTO LOVE..
As time goes by we r togeder.. We r very happy.. VERY happy.. but suddenly.. something bad happen.. This bad thing really shaken our love for each other.. His ex came back to his life n wants him back.. I bearly knows dat he confused but he dosen wan to show cause he know that I'll b hurt..N many pple told me to break up n finally i asked for a break up but he didn't let me go.. my reason for a break up was bco of my family n also becoz too many pple kinda wash my brain.. n i agreed.. But my cousin, Farhanah stood up n didn't let me break up with him.. but by the time she told me i areadi asked for it.. Of coz he's shocked n he tok 2 me.. At that time he kinda accused me of playing with his heart.. But he didnt know wad i was going thru.. how dey wash my brain.. he didnt know about all these.. I guessed i follow what they say becos my love for him was'nt that strong.. Fotunately we didnt break up.. i took back my words.. N i prayed to god.. aksed him to show me my way n soon my love for him grew.. As days pass by my love for grew stronger n stronger.. Im happy that i found my love for him back.. Hope it won't go away!! NOW I REALLY LOVE HIM!! my love for is even stronger then how i love amirrul.. But im scared that we wont b together.. The scary feeling of losing him awaes appear.. I can take any pain except of one pain..THE PAIN Of LOSING SOMEONE I REALLY LOVE.. Tuhan.. tolonglah aku.. jangan pisah kan kami!! I have shut my eyes for the second time to the world.. I hope its worth while.. Sayang i had never played with ur feelings.. N will never will.. I juz need time to build my love for you.. Now my love for you is completely built.. hope u understand.. I have no one else but you.. YOU are the onli one i want.. Hope our love will b forever.. I want to b a part of your life.. N you are a PART of my life!! iM glad dat my parents really like you sayang!!

SAYANG I M SORRY IF I"D EVER HURT YOU BUT IM HONEST>> HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU ONLI GOD KNOWS!!

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